October 14, 2009

My personal love story but not "in love" story - A failure love for me ( Chinese version)

现在,我算是第一次在这里发表长长的文章, 其实目的是为了宣泄,更加了解自己,也然别人了解我,不再对我有很多的疑惑。 现在也想写一写关于我的感情世界方面,到底是如何的一个现实,一一为大家公开。 说到我的感情世界里,简单来说,起头,不是很顺利,且遭到不少的麻烦和困扰。记得当初5年级之际,有一位女同学,叫作颖娴,因为帮我有功,所以很想感激她,帮助了她一些功课上的麻烦,以她的聪明,我都比不上。但,不知不觉已经喜欢上她,但是,竟然那个时候的家豪就杀出来,说他我才是真正爱她的人,还说少来与她交往,就此,我就退缩了,与她等于打了冷战。

说到中学,波折重重,谣言纷飞,真的很难生存。初中二之际,有一位女生,叫作文慧,因与她有缘,所以一起补习的同学们,就开始对我做出了询问,只是说与她有缘但是想爱她?哈~不可能吧~然后死党们三反四次推波助澜之下,在她面前打个招呼,甚至说说是不是喜欢她。这个招供,很尴尬,很难为情。实在不知如何,接下来的日子,就只有躲避。接下来的高中一,也只有在大集会时见到。

另外,初中二勇班,也就是我的班级,我有一位好友叫作泉沐,他的女朋友就是与我在初一时同一个校车巴士的巴友吧,也就是现在各位所认识的 Tiffany Tan,她本人很随和,很开朗,与她交谈,可说是很荣幸,对她的感觉也特别舒服和豪爽的,自此,我开始暗恋了她。自从她留级后,我不懂到底她有没有继续努力往上爬,结果是有,不过在我的学习生涯中,感觉上,她无心向学了,且交到不知明,像那种出来“混”的男朋友,一交也交过不少了,我升得越高,与她见面也只有40%的几率,只在巴士见面,给了她一些忠告和劝导,当时的她,也点头,不过事后也不得而知。到后来,2009年的某一月,自从我当了小小摄影发烧友后,在一个比赛重见她的面貌,感到十分意外,还问自己,这是她吗?怎么变得那么美呢?转战模特儿界的她,未来想当个司仪,口齿伶俐,桌球技高超,可想她多强。7年了,暗恋了她很久,但往往没机会表达我的倾慕之情,于是,我提起胆子,送了花给她,她也接受了。只是这几个星期,仍然未有动向。最近也因有了男友之际,使我觉得有点失望。很多很多网友都一直追问我关于她的事,有多了解她。答案是没错,我有很多关于她习性都记在脑海了,而且,我还是一样那么爱她,几年了。Thomas 还问我,如果她有了男友,你是否还爱她?最后答她,YES! Vyner,Martial还有很多很多的朋友也曾经向我说,不管她是否有男友,只要您爱她,就勇敢去爱,去试一试,就算没有了,也没损失。是,虽然意志坚定,但始终是我没有做到任何一件事令她开心。这事情,未来自有定夺。多次在网友前写出很多忠告或是心中不满,但是我不应该,这样只是破坏了我对她的印象,但忠告里,也有一些人生道理,想默默地要她了解......我也不知道,到底现在的她,还是和以前那样,在恋爱当中,一样那么有压力?

上到了高中一时,因很开心地玩在一起的慧琦,就这样开始了一个傻乎乎的小感情,但是,还是谣言作怪,加上其他人的坏话,我顿时感到很无奈和自卑,加上到了高中二时,也只有偷偷地观望。每次跨过她的班级,就是想望一望她,看看在做什么。到了食堂,也有80%几率看见她,而且是很偶然的看到,每次心跳加速,到底她会往哪里而去?到底会否看到我呢?会否与我打个招呼呢?事与愿违,始终也只有远望,不能接近,一次又一次的割破自己的心。令我感到很痛苦,只是和身边的好友宣泄。过了高中二的SPM考试,我还是有留意她在学院的动向,也是一样,那么奢侈,那么享受,一点也不需要受苦的人。到了去到澳洲之际,也交了一个印裔男朋友,很多人说,浪费了。但,对我来说,这个时候的她,也找到了幸福,也放手让她继续往前进。

到了大学,解禁我对女人的偏见已经开始了,想好好地谈恋爱,但始终怨天尤人,到现在也无法找到一个女朋友,连一个吻,一个搂抱,一句“我爱你”,也未曾作过,多多少少,在出征拍摄时,也对过不少美女,说了很多甜蜜的句子,也哄了她们开怀大笑,甚至是搂抱,也有了。但是,这并不代表开始学习如何泡妞谈恋爱,而是我长大了,不像以前那样守规矩,但是目前也是有的,只是自由了很多。有人说我幽默,我并不觉得我有幽默感,有人说我是好人,但我并不是个好人,有人说我现在出名了,但并不出名,因为何来出名?现在我的感情世界,历经很多不同的波折,了解不少,朋友的照顾,关怀,慰问,使我也重拾信心,但仍然过不了自己那关的,还是我自己的胆量。更是,我竟然没有付出过任何一个代价,就好像被感情判了死刑。几乎天天抱着悲观的心情面对爱情,面对众人,我惟有笑笑,暂时隐瞒心中之苦,回到家,也只有哭在心里。曾经不哭的我,最后还是为了一个她,而掉落眼泪,感慨自己没付出,感叹自己没胆量,自责为何我不去告白,责怪自己没有好好珍惜机会,用心和真诚打动她,然而,我的动作,就是个白费,连垃圾也不如。不过,反复思考,我的脑子给了我一个启示,机会几时有,但要抓紧,脱了后,是不会再有第二次。 我希望,以后,我还是能以坚定的姿态,迎接爱情的到来。想要更多的第一次,虽然从来没有爱情中的拍拖,搂抱,吻嘴等的动作,但我要以忠诚之心,为爱付出一切,运用我的知识,灌输于她的脑子里,运用我的一切,奉献于未来的她。 愿苍天,保佑。

October 13, 2009

Studio Shoot - The First Ever Touch














When semester started, there is a subject called Digital Imaging. And required to work more on the studio shooting. Well, firstly sounds fun. But, it's not an easy job, firstly you have to know what kind of equipment you have to use in studio, secondly you have to know how to measuring using light metre for correct exposure , thirdly in studio, besides the place is quite small and limited unlike the outdoor, you need something good gear in studio, so I have purchased EF 70-200mm f/4L USM.
当学期已开始时,我们有一个科目,就是数码影像,所要做多的是在摄影棚里做功课。开始时,看起来很好玩的。但是,这不是一件容易的工作。第一,要知道和了解摄影棚里的器材,方能使用。第二,要如何运用测光器准确量出正确的曝光。第三,在摄影棚里,地方很小,不像户外那么宽,需要一些好的装备,我就选购了 EF 70-200mm f/4L USM.


The reason I purchased this lens is because it is a good portrait lens and also a good telephoto lens for medium range. Besides, since it is a "L" lens, the first production in Canon 70-200mm series, it is quite sharp and perfectly clear in image. Also, this lens also good for sports and birding too. It's really happy to own this.
买这个镜头的主要原因是因为它是个很好的人像镜头,而且是很好的中程变焦镜头。另外,除了因为它是“L”系列的镜头以外,这镜头也是佳能 70-200毫米变焦镜头系列中第一个推出的类型。而且照片很尖锐和清晰。此外,这个镜头本身在运动和鸟类拍摄都很适合。很开心能拥有此物。

Back to the topic, it's quite challenging in studio shooting, have to repeat and repeat the shot when we have make mistake. Also, we have to measure correctly or calculate the perfect exposure to the subject in order to make a good picture. A lot of subject that I've shot in this long journey of studio shooting.
回归正题,在摄影棚拍摄绝对是一件很有挑战性的事,当我们做错,需要不断地重复拍摄直到对为止。另外,我们也必须测量准确的曝光或计算对的曝光程度以产生出好的照片。这长时间的拍摄工作中也拍了不少作品。

Overall, teamwork have made us success all the way, besides in individual work , we have share the knowledge and help each other in producing good work. Although it is a very tough journey, I believed in photography world, nothing is impossible.
总的来说,团队工作是我们成功。至于个人作业,我们也互相交换意见和知识,互相帮助其他人一起合作完成任务。虽然是一个艰辛的旅程,我相信在摄影世界里,没有什么是不可能的。

October 10, 2009

Lolita Outing - Share of Japanese Culture










30 May 2009, this is after I go to shoot Rose Chin, the 2nd place I need to go , which is the lolita outing organized by the ORANGE , the organizer of the lolita outing. For your info, lolita outing is my first ever experience with the lolita fashion lover in KL , and I'm quite surprised with all the fashion that I love for the long time.
5月30日,Rose Chin的拍摄工作完成后,第二个地方要去的就是洛莉塔服装聚会,由ORANGE特别主办。告诉大家,这是我第一次和她们一起团聚在一起,而且感到非常的惊喜万分,因为这个时尚是我长久以来很喜欢的一个文化。

According the lolita lovers, there is 4 types : 1) Sweet Lolita , 2) Classical Lolita , 3) Country Lolita or Kaneko Lolita , 4) Gothic Lolita. These 4 types have different personality and feel too.
Also, Lolita IS NOT a COSPLAY . This is different thing from the fashion trend and cosplay definition.
根据洛丽塔时尚玩家的资料,共分4种:1)甜蜜型 2)古典型 3)田园风型 4)歌德式,这四种各有不同的风味和感觉。另外,洛丽塔时尚不能与角色扮演相提并论,因为定义是完全相反的。

That day may be use a lot of battery , so when shoot the last photo, the battery was die out , and quite disappointed too. Gladly, I'm able to shoot some photo for them, but not all, next time I will do more best since I'm keep on improved the skill although there is a lot of negative comments and statement have pounded for many times. Overall, it is a stunning outing that attracted a lot of attention during we walked at MidValley area, over hundred of peoples witnessed this massive group of the outing.
那一天,因为用太多电源的关系,当拍下最后一张照片时,电源已经没了,而且极度失望。但庆幸的是我还是能拍下一些珍贵的照片,虽不是很多,但是下次我会拍得更多,且我的技术一直不断地更新和进步,只是一直以来都受到很多负面的打击。总的来说,这是一个很出色的团聚活动,也吸引不少在谷中城的围观者的注意,超过百人以上亲眼见证了这个历史性庞大的团队。



October 08, 2009

China Military Parade Rehearsal 中国国庆彩排





























Eve of the Hari Raya, I was followed with the Reuter reporter to get some story about the China Military Parade Rehearsal. I was darn too happy and I never go any country before, is like dream comes true. The flight ticket to Beijing is ready and fly to there. Arrived at afternoon.
开斋节前夕,我跟随一个Reuter的记者去到北京采访关于中国国庆即将彩排的事项。我简直开心的不得了,从来没出国的我终于有机会了,简直梦想成真了!飞往北京的航班机票已经好了,然后下午飞到北京。

Why I can go ? Everyone asked this question , actually that Reuter reporter invited me to have a special journey with him and help him complete the task. Well, before that I was disagree, but then is the big chance to see the power of China, so I agree finally.
为什么我能去?很多再问这个问题,那个Reuter记者邀请我与他在这个特别旅程一起完成这个采访工作。起初,我没有答应他,但最后想了想,想要看看中国繁盛强大的国家,最后我答应了。

The security there quite tight at all , and everyone must check before they entered the place. And I'm glad to see the People Liberation Army have their rehearsal in very well organize, timing totally correct , the action also precise.
那里的保安深严,每个人需要检查才能入境。我很开心能看到人民解放军以整齐的正步之步伐,“走百米不差分毫,走百步不差分秒”的境界,和动作全部整齐一致。

When the time step to the night time , 1am , the rehearsal of all formation of soldiers and armour vehicles is started. Everything is a perfect scene, and perfect walk and timing to all the military personnel. The rehearsal ended with the singing formation which in theme of the 4 Chairman of China Communist Party.
当时间踏入凌晨一点,彩排开始了,所有步兵方阵和装甲车方阵都开始起步。整个画面简直完美无暇,每一个战士的步伐都做到整齐一致。彩排最后在歌唱方阵以中共四个领导人思想为主题的表演下结束。

In the morning, I also able to watch the China Air Force have their rehearsal at the skyline of Beijing TianAnMen Square. All flight formation is perfect and I love the sound of the jet engine. J-10 fighter and YJ-2000 Airborne Early Warning and Control plane is the main focus in this rehearsal. Before I left Beijing, I snap as much as photo that I can.
早上时分,我还能看到中国空军梯队的彩排跨过北京天安门上空。所有梯队都整齐飞过,我也爱上了它们的引擎声。歼-10 战机和预警-2000是这次彩排的主要焦点。在我还未离开北京之前,多多拍下几张照片。

Overall, it is a big success for this trip and I safely returned to Malaysia and reunite with family at Genting Highland. Thanks to that Reuter reporter and I'm able to shoot this historical event at 21st century.
总结来说,这是一个很成功的旅程,还安全地回到大马与家人在云顶高原团聚。谢谢那位Reuter记者让我有机会拍摄这个21世纪最有历史性的节日。

BON ODORI 2009 盆踊舞会
























Stadium Matsushita, Shah Alam , where every year have a massive event there , Bon Odori festival. This time the peoples are getting more and more , and I have also met with all the Comic Fiesta forumers, together we play together.
松下体育馆,莎亚南,每一年都会举办大型的节日,盆踊舞会。这次的盛会超级多人,而且还和一大班动漫一族一起狂欢。

Everyone join together and dance together , photographers are busy to capture every best moment they can. Dancers and drummers performed their best of the best to the audiences. That night, I can't use other word to explain, BEST!
每一个人都一起来团聚跳舞,摄影人就忙着捕抓珍贵的镜头,舞者和鼓手都使出浑身解数发挥最好的给观众。那一夜,没有别的字能形容,赞!